You know, i can deal with this. i mean, i'm still kinda shocked and i think it's kinda ri diculous i didn't get a JET assignment. But honestly, tangibly, constructively, what the fuck can I do now, except:

give
keep writing
travel when i can
devote myself to becoming a better fiction writer
publish my novel
love
help people
yadda yadda

I know it doesn't look like it right now since i've gotten nothing but rejections since the year started, but 2007 is gonna be a good year, i just know it. i'm just waiting for the universe to agree with me.